care

Who cares.Who needs care .Hell with it.
Either way you loose.
If you suppress your emotions and act normal with great strain and nobody understands it is a shear waste.
basically people may not be interested in somebody. and if you try to change it is futile. They can fake the interest but it will not continue, at some point your belief will crumble and you will get hurt
It happens to me every time but I cat escape from it .It is the fate.
I reduced the involvement of any body in my life to a minimum
Now can even list the same
my dependence on others
my emotional satisfaction no my weakness of bothering about others and
OK let it be
be in the practical things
The involvement of others in my affairs
1 water   keeping a bottle of water for me  -- irregular 60%
Medicines 0%
Clothes 100%
Bathroom 60%
Bed 40%
Food 70%
Emotional support 20%
Paper and other things20%
Computer 10%
Information 20%
conversation 10%
average35% attention I receive at this stage
But my botheration of the affairs....
finance 100%
health100%
business 100%
planning 100%
The areas I loose
Prompting for activities
pep talk
involvement
personal likes
Mood change
bad health
attension
care
sympathy
acknowledgement
gratitude

Instead of all these I get